A picture of John Paul Francis...because, why not? |
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Who knew the ol' heart would keep gettin' bigger Photo courtesy of Russ Wasylyshyn |
Love multiplied increases love. Who’d have thunk it (well, every mother that ever
had children I suppose), but it turns out our hearts really do just increase in
their capacity to love. Since bringing
home John Paul, I can feel a distinct difference in how much/well I am loving
my other two children and husband. It’s
like my capacity to love has just grown tremendously. I am noticing the kindness of my oldest child
more distinctly, I am aware of the sensitive of my middle child in a new way, and I
am in awe of the sacrifices my husband makes for the good of our family. Of course, with that comes the not so
pleasant feeling of knowing I am failing my children and husband in oh so many
ways. But alas, this work in progress will continue to be worked I
suppose. In the meantime, I sit with the
miracle of an expanding heart and feel thankful for the gift of an openness to
life.
Speaking of an openness to life…um, I am not pregnant
anymore! It is so awesome to not be
pregnant (please take that the right way, because I do, of course, realize what
a gift and miracle pregnancy is). It’s
so funny, home and recovering from a c-section I would take ANY DAY over
pregnancy sickness, pregnancy tiredness, etc… I love the fact I am not pregnant
so much that sometimes I just smile, even when in pain and think, ‘it could be
worse, I could still be pregnant’. I am
so thankful for pregnancy, because it is the means by which God has chosen our
little family to grow, but yeah, I don’t dig the process.
My sweetheart Photo courtesy of Russ Wasylyshyn |
So turns out you veteran moms were right, the newborn stage
becomes more special with each child. I
am someone who has always said I could pretty much take or leave the newborn
stage. It is a stage one must move through in order to get to the good stuff, when personality starts to show, kids begin
to talk, etc…And, there is still truth to that.
Lil’ Aaron’s age is SO MUCH FUN and I can’t wait to have all my kids
walking and talking. That being said,
for the first time, much like I was warned about, I am loving the quiet peace
and bonding that occurs in this stage. I love pulling John Paul out of his bassinet
to nurse at night. I love our snuggles.
I love watching him sleep. I just
love how wonderful the last week has been.
Truth be told, Big Aaron is home right now, I am still recovering from
surgery, and I am sure that makes a significant difference. My job has been pretty much to love on my kids this
last week, which will change on Monday when it’s back to reality. But for now, I am going to revel in the
miracle that is my newest child and thank God for the time He gives us to get
to know each other during the first few weeks.
Don't let the sweetness of this picture fool you Photo courtesy of Russ Wasylyshyn |
That was lovely, what I just said up there. And every word was true. But, for the sake of keeping it real, I have
two things to tell you. Though I have
tried to deny it for the past month, there is no more denying it. My eldest
child officially says the word, ‘sh—‘.
And, to be more specific, he says, ‘oh sh—‘ in a frustrating voice when
he is frustrated. You guys, I knew my
mouth was going to catch up with me one day, and turns out it has. There is nothing cute about a 2 year old
repeatedly saying, ‘oh sh—‘. Turns out,
Big A and I have got to quickly clean up our vocal act, or we are in HUGE
trouble. As if that wasn’t bad enough,
the other day, lil’ A was frustrated with big A. He ran down the hall into his
room and slammed the door. THEN, he
opened the door and slammed it again for good measure. Big A turns to me and says, ‘and…I wonder
where he got THAT from’. Parenting- we’re
doing it right (or something like that).
Lil' A in love with JP Photo courtesy of Russ Wasylyshyn |
Back to sweet things.
Do you see how I sandwiched the unpleasant thing in between the sweet
things? I confess like that too. Little
sin, little sin, BIG SIN, little sin, little sin…anyway, moving on. I am so
thankful God saw fit to allow us to raise three boys. I love watching my
children interact with one another. Lil’
A is positively smitten with the baby.
He cannot get enough. First thing
in the morning he runs in to give the baby kisses. It’s pretty much the sweetest thing ya ever
did see.
This could be a whole post, but it won’t be. I just have to say, Pope Francis is RIGHT ON. I love that our Church leadership seems to be
moving in a direction I have been thinking about for several years now. I love that we have an example to follow who
is, in such a messy way, giving us instructions on how to preach/teach and
evangelize. As I was reading through his newest ‘controversial’
interview, I found myself nodding in enthusiastic agreement. I am hoping and praying I can apply his
insights into the way I speak to others about our faith. And, is it wrong to say, I am hoping that
some of my friends in faith do the same ;)
Cause I said it.
I have a refrigerator full of alcohol to begin responsibly
consuming as soon as I am off the painkillers (two more days, tops). Lemme just
say, whenever I open the fridge, I think two things. 1) I probably talked a bit too much about
missing booze during this pregnancy 2) I have the best friends ever! I actually can’t decide if I am most excited about
the Skinny Girl Sangria, the bud light, or the Vodka which I can mix with
cranberry juice to cocktail
perfection. Note- I understand
this particular take makes me seem a bit ridiculous and for that, I cannot
apologize.
Happy almost Friday.
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Love this, all Mary!!
ReplyDeleteAnd I agree about what Pope Francis said, I just wish two things, (1) The media would stop taking it out of context and (2)Those in the church that keep on saying he is ruining the church would STOP. He is all about loving and serving and doing. And I love that.
And, your kids are ADORABLE!!
I gotta tell you Katie, I just witnessed (2) first hand the other day on someone's blog. I was SHOCKED that people actually feel that way. The Media takes things out of context and some 'orthodox' Catholics blame Pope francis :( It bummed me out.
DeleteNewborns, booze, Papa F. Triple play, lady. Cheers to a happiest of Sundays, if I am doing that math right. ;)
ReplyDeleteToday's the day :) Which one should I start with!
DeleteAll so so good! Well, except for the 2 year old expletives but I think we've all been there :) That moment you realize that they will pick up on whatever you say? Yep. Kids do make us holier! I only saw the headlines for the pope's interview which made me roll my eyes but now I should probably try to find what he ACTUALLY said...if I can.
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh, I have a whole post rolling in my head about the call to holiness through family. It's insanity.
DeleteYOu are such an alcoholic ;)
ReplyDeleteI am missing my martinis soooooo bad this time around, but that's probably what got me here in the first place.
Maybe I'll get that appreciation for the newborn stage this time around? 6th time's a charm, right? I mostly just go into survival mode and wait to come out the other side.
Ha- colleen I feel like I am in the twilight zone loving this stage. i have NEVER before. Weird.
Deletestill offering things up for you and your pregnancy! :) Your my hero.
cute baby. Here ya on the bad words..but its just not the big ones--small words like stupid and idiot...ughhh it sounds so bad coming from little ones.
ReplyDeleteIt's like a whole new level of accountability isn't it.
DeleteYour kids are soooo cute. I am living in fear of ours picking up bad or questionable words...we've been lucky so far! Your confession m.o. makes me laugh. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd btw, I am 100% in your corner about the not being pregnant. I've had 4 C sections and I remember every time I woke up in the hospital, this wonderful sense of well-being, despite the soreness. There just wasn't that awful "I'm about to split in half" feeling, that awful "there's no room for my organs in my body" feeling.
Thank you thank you thank you for the compliment on the children!
DeleteI almost died when I noticed he was straight up swearing. YIKES!
And amen!
Am so glad you are enjoying your babymoon and the boys are lovin their
ReplyDeleteBig Brother status. Have a wonderful weekend!!
It is so fun watching them all!
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