Thursday, May 26, 2011

So behind...

...On blogging:) I have written Mr Lil' Aaron's birthstory- but I have to make sure it is readable before posting. In the meantime, I thought I would just riff a bit!
Tuesday, we took our first trip to the ER. Tuesday morning started rough, maybe it should have been a sign? We went to Mass at 6:45 pm (I love the fact that our Church is within walking distance), and had baby boy in his car seat/stroller thing. He hates being buckled in, so on our way home, I figured I would just set him in the seat. We had a great walk home, and as we got to our house, I did what I normal do, I elevated the stroller to bring it up the stairs into the house. When I did that, baby boy went tumbling out of the stroller, on to the ground, the sidewalk. I have never had a sensation of wanting to throw up because of sadness or horror until that moment. It was by far the worse experience of my life, so that is all I will say about that. We took him to the ER, because he had a bump on his head- all is well now, but it turns out he did have a skull fracture. Can you imagine? On a 3 week old? I shudder when writing this...but it reminded me of something I want to document. Things I didn't realize about mommyhood.
- I didn't realize that love actually hurts. Like, loving my child is going to be a truly painful experience- but a good reflection on the Blessed Mother
- I didn't realize what a good man my husband was. Whether it is his calm head in times of crisis, his helpful attitude, the way he sings to baby boo and makes up words. I always knew I married an awesome guy, I had no idea that he was SO awesome.
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The worst part of having a colicky baby isn't the crying, that I can easily block out...the worst part is holding him, when he is screaming, knowing that he is in pain and there is very little you can do to help.
- I didn't realize that a kid so young, could make me laugh out loud so often. Real laughter. It might be because his hat has fallen in front of his eyes, or he makes a silly face when going number 2 :) It might be that he is looking at me with such wonder, or that he is doing his big boy stretches in the morning...I just never knew how much I would ADORE the times he makes me laugh.
- I didnt realize how much he would change, so quickly, and that I would want it to stop...lol:)

There is more I will write later but alas, he has woken up and needs his mom.


  1. That must have been such a nightmare for you. I'm glad the pumpkin is okay and the mommy survived!

  2. Thanks so much for sharing this. I know that sick feeling all too well now. You're right. It hurts to love so much. And, I love love love the connection you made to Mary. It makes her Son's Passion so much more touching because I can feel it through the heart of a mother now. What a strong woman. Mary is truly amazing...and I'm not just talking about you ;)