Well, I have a few things to say. And it is about the tragedy of today. And I know a lot of people are talking about
it. I know a lot of people have opinions
about why things like this keep happening. I know a lot of us are appalled that
we live in a country where things like this occur. I want
to tell you four things that didn't sit right with me today, and one thing I am
eternally grateful for.
It didn't sit right with me that the news media was interviewing
children. It really wasn't right. I am encouraging you to boycott/stop
listening to/turn off news media outlets that are exploiting this situation by using
children to describe it. I get that it was an elementary school. I get that is
where the ‘story’ is. I get that in this culture, we are HUNGRY for our
appetites to be satisfied with the most real, the most up to date information. BUT, children who have been through
something too horrific for them to even begin to understand
should.not.be.interviewed. And, if they are, we should turn the station.
It didn't sit right with me when someone posted a story
about a ‘hero’ in one of the classrooms.
A child, who did something heroic.
I didn't click on the story, so I don’t know what this student did that
was heroic. But, this was an elementary
school, so at the VERY oldest, this child was in 5th grade. 5th graders shouldn't have to be
heroes in school shootings. They just shouldn't. So, although I am sure there
was beauty in the story, and I am sure the story illuminated some type of hope in
place of sorrow, it isn't a story I will be reading. And it isn't a story I will be sharing. There is nothing, to me, at this moment, that
seems beautiful about a child working to save other children from being killed
in an elementary school in the United States.
Is that wrong? I don’t know, but
it is where I am at.
It didn't sit right with me that IMMEDIATELY a national and
private debate began about gun control.
I heard it on the news, I heard it on the radio, I heard it in the restaurant
Aaron and I were dining at. All of you
who are engaging, today, in that discussion, should be ashamed of
yourselves. Yes, I said it,
ashamed. Children are dead. Before we begin forming into our little camps
of who’s fault it is because of what laws we support in terms of gun control…maybe
we should just take a hot second to be unified in horror.
And finally, and this is the big one, the one I want you to
read…this is the one I am convicted of…it didn't sit right with me that mental
illness is once again being blamed for this situation. And now, I will speak in direct terms. Terms that I think we need more of in this
country.
Mental illness had very little, IF ANYTHING, to do with the shooting of children today. Mental illness did.not. leave a school soaked
in the blood of innocence. Mental
illness is NOT to blame. EVIL IS. And I am SO.DAMN.SICK of those two things
getting twisted.
You see, two of my best friends are mentally ill. The struggle daily to manage their illness
with medication/therapy/behavioral modification, etc… Their ability to guide their emotions to be
subject to their intellect is EXTREMELY difficult. But they do it. And for people to claim that mental illness
is the reason for what happened today makes me sick. Mental illness is not to blame for BABIES
being KILLED in their CLASSROOMS.
EVIL
IS.
And evil is real. And
we might not like to mention it. And we
might like to pretend we live in a world without it. But, WE.DO.NOT. It has been said that the best trick the
devil played on the modern world is to convince the world that he doesn't exist. Because he does. And today, in Connecticut, in a school
full of innocence, the devil was working.
The devil was working through a man who decided to kill his family and
then, to kill sweet babies. There is no
other word for what happened today, but evil.
There is no other explanation for what happened today, but evil. SHEER EVIL.
Don’t get it twisted, it is a painful pill to swallow, but today was NOT
about mental illness. Today was about evil.
At play constantly is a subtle battle between good and
evil. A lot of time, good wins out. A lot of time, our actions help to make the
world a better place. But sometimes,
evil appears to have the upper hand. Today
is one of those times. I can’t watch the
news. I just can’t. I told Aaron that if I did, if I read what actually
went on today, it might be too much for me.
You all that know me, know that since having my babies, the one thing I
cannot deal with is people bringing harm to children. I cannot deal. BUT, and here is where the plot twist begins. I have hope today. My hope is strong, and I will tell you
why. Evil is real, sometimes, it seems
like evil is winning, but evil doesn't win.
In moments like today, when I can barely breath because I
cannot handle the tragedy that occurred states away, I have something to cling
to. My faith tells me that as we WEEP
here on earth for those beautiful babies who lost their lives today, just as we
weep, they are comforted. Comforted in
heaven with a God who loves them. They
were wrapped in immediate warm shelter, by nothing less than love brought to
life. Because see, even though evil
sometimes has to be named, we have to remember, evil has already been defeated. Because the devil already lost. He lost big time. He lost when our God faced the horror that is
death and said, ‘where is your sting, for I have defeated you!’. OUR.GOD.DEFEATED.DEATH. And today, those babies are DANCING with Jesus. That doesn't take away the grief we
feel today. It surely won’t take away
the grief of the families who will live with this tragedy every moment of every
day until they get to go home…BUT, it does bring comfort.
Friends that read my blog, I am going to share with you a
prayer that I pray quite often. I pray it when I am scared. I pray it with my
babies. I pray it with my family. I pray it occasionally (though I will start
more) with my teens. For those of you
that are not of the Catholic Faith Tradition, please know that when we call
upon the angels/saints, we are asking them to pray with us, we are not worshiping them. Just as you might ask
your friends to pray for you, we believe we can ask the angels and saints to
pray for us. Long ago, with details so
sketchy no one knows for sure, there was an angel that defeated Satan. He did it for allegiance to a God who loves
us. To some of you, that might just be a ‘story’,
to me, it is a fact, a piece of spiritual history not to be forgotten. My friends, as we continue to understand our
ever violent world, and the evil acts that continue to take place, PLEASE
consider praying this prayer once a day with me. Please considering invoking the strength of
the saints and angles to help put to death evil that still exists in this world…please
pray with me….
Saint
Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle.
Be our protection
against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him,
we humbly pray;
and do Thou, O
Prince of the Heavenly Host -
by the Divine Power
of God -
cast into hell,
satan and all the evil spirits,
who roam throughout
the world seeking the ruin of souls.
AMEN